Braving the storm

There is a saying..when life give you lemons..turn it into lemonade.
As for me .. as long as there is lemon..means there is a hope.

I had lost a handful of dearest peoples  a few years ago in my life or I might say..
They are all in their next phase of life before the judgement day..
It's a very long way to go before having an eternity life
The lost sometimes creating a void in this life
But this void is the test given by Allah

Allah made me learnt
To love them is to love Him first..only put Him first...
We are His creation
He knows what is the best for us
We only see things 2 to 3 or 4 dimensions
But He sees more than that
It is not easy to enter Jannah
Maybe this is a 'cleansing' process to my soul
By not depending on human so much

To my dearest
Hubby
Aunt Nah
Uncle Man
Ina

they thought me through their manners
selfless and thoughtful of everyone in surrounding
generous and always there when in need
never expect anything in returns
the most caring
not uptight and fun
supportive
providing unconditional love

How I miss them so much

I thank Allah for sending me all these beautiful peoples
in my life

Till we meet again in Jannah and always wishing them to be in my dream


Alfatihah

Till now,
2H

Boss oo boss

I am a pretty straight forward and sometimes a vocal person. But most of the time I like to be in silence. Silence is golden- a proverb but if it is wrongly used, people will thought that we are arrogant.

Doing works and completing tasks are no big deal to someb of us. So we think. Expect people to have same waveleghts of ideas and thoughts is also not true at most of the time.

I used to work under this boss years ago and now he is my boss again after being seconded again. I dunno what went wrong last week that he made a sulking kind of statement. We just need his new address for completing our intellectual property form upon submission to the lawyer and yet he was reluctant to give his new address. He also made remarks that if the patent is granted, he will not ger the profit. Duh??? So why on earth we want his biodata and address to be included in the form?! Guy also has PMS?

Lady boss hard to discuss, guy boss is the last resort.. but it seems guy boss is just like lady boss...
Lets vibrate to this new world that we still not in short of respectful leaders..
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Today's song: Kiyomi... have fun and stay cute wherever u are

Apssie daisy

I dunno whether blogging is outdated now since the emergence of many other techno savvy social applications or networks ..like twitter and wassupss or even instagram. But I suppose many who are still committed to this since I have a few regular blogs that I like to surf or read.. and these peoples are still updating their blogs everyday mind you. Kudos to these people. For today, I just upload this Blogspot apps to my i-phone and I am quite proud of myself since I did this myself. Poyo kan. I am so ketinggalan but it is better late than never.. he..he.. So I will try to upload whatever I come across everyday. Everyday??? heh..heh.. Don't know who cares.
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By the way, today I dedicated a song entitled 'Father and Son' by 'Ronan Keating n Cats Steven' to someone out there who feel under the weather today.
Chiowss.

Perjumpaan Hangat Geng Sekolah Menengah

Minggu lepas hari Sabtu,  30th May, I attended reunion party organised by a few ladies from our batch of ex-mrsm Terendak.

I tried a few times to upload the pics of the chicks since the party only organised for the ladies despite our school is co-ed. 

I haven't met many of them for ages since many of us went to diff. uni locally and overseas.

We took pictures, giggles just like in out teenage years and catched up with the stories of our life thus far. But time is rather constraint in which I couldn't

mingle with all of them. 

Anyway, I still miss my BFF Ina.

Here are the pics. Mmuahs.

2013 and still alive

Alhamdullillah..life is good thus far with all the rezeki given is more than enough. This year hope to add another kid(s), Allah willing insyaAllah. 

When still alive, we have to move on doing something significant to oneself, others and the country.

Searching for cure for cancer is not an easy task. No one has found it as yet. It looks impossible but will pray and tawakal to Allah that whatever compounds we found and optimise in the future will not give the bad effects to the patient. For me, it is not a one man show and single organisation's effort to achieve this dream.

Hope can travel to three overseas countries this year..hope my husband's health is ok.

Hope we can do our ibadah well. 

Hope the ruh of my beloved fathers, relative, prev. boss and friends aman di alam barzakh. Alfatihah.

Syukur. Enough said..

What will be ..will be

Hieya all..it is October 12' already..I am suppose in the era of working people who has their KPI mak nenek and all..it is time to pulun since we have another quarter to go to accomplish 'The Mission'. My work life at workplace had been crazy for this year..it is hard to focus in accomplishing one work load specially the core work that is research. Today, I have to take a leave so that I can have my quality time to write a semi-technical paper and to do the thinking on the future of current on- going projects especially to do some patent analysis. Gila tak..amik cuti so that I can do my core 'bussiness'. At work..people are chasing deadline to accomplish these auditing thingy..I need a break man..

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On the other note, I feel quite numb these days. Thank to Allah that my hubby had finished all his clinical procedures that he had to go through due to his chronic illness. Feel a bit relieve. Unfortunately, this year also I faced with berita kematian my best friend Ina Gee. Al fatihah to her, Semoga ruh beliau ditempatkan dikalangan orang yang beriman dan beramal soleh. Tak ada lagi geng untuk I share all my ups and down in life, geng to share our laughers and tears, geng to give good moral supports and all.


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Still adjusting

• Couldn't sleep thinking of nonsense. Facebooking didn't help. It's getting boring
• Watched CSI NY with hubby last night about Adam stalking online using 'Nexting' kinda social network while doing his database search or dry lab experiments and then he bumped into a murder. Told Mac Tyler and the whole team prioritised the case to solve who killed the victim. Name any databases, even they have hammer database..that's too good to be true for a lab to have all sort of databases. Wish can work with that kind of database
• Back to story of readjusting..yea..one of my 'toy' is dead. No chance to repair. Never had any major problems before I went off studying over "the sea". Tired of listening to the 'person' that cause this 'bad' fate. Life must go on.
• Juggling to follow the needs of being on "a world class research", on ISO, on 5S, on commercialisation, on adjunct campus, on getting funding, on getting collaborators (not entirely my needs though..it's crazy)
• and then..re-acclimatize back with the infective questions like our bussiness is theirs: like "How old is KIMI?". Me nicely said"3plus". Next thing ? Guess the typical question my friends.."Can tambah hha.." Me"Of course insya Allah". :P...Please..ask me a more intelligent Q coz I feel stupid by answering those. Maybe I am stupid afterall.
• adjusting the "unfriendly" of "friendliness" peoples. Is it difficult to reply a salam or greetings and show a smiley face in the morning? I know living in KL is very stress but come-on..Show me ur smiley face :)))
• Ah..finally my heart and soul..kimi..certainly the ceria force in the family..he has started his pre-school.

Enjoy ur day even u have a Sh***y boss.

Random Pic 2010

Now it's already 9 months since we left Sydney for good. Daddy cont. his work as LA (shortform used in my workplace...ha..ha..). Me back to work as "semi-pure" government servant (cause my workplace is semi-government) and Kimi growing up very fast as an active toddler, woody wood pecker, dr, so on and so forth.

We had been to JB (my hometown) in which kimi pronounced as "Jo-Oh" for our hari raya aidilfitri. Prior to that, we had been to Segamat (my hubby's hometown), Trengganu (KT) and Kuantan for family holiday. Ok la jugak tu to cover for this year kan. At least for a 3 year old kimi, he had cover a lot more than both of his parents when they were at his age.

This pic was taken masa eidul fitri kat rumah arwak tok I. But quite sedih la, my father and 2 uncles dah arwah. I'm sort of "kemaskini" kan kimi..ceh..padahal samping pasang siap shj.

Ni 'port' kimi and atuk Nak & Atuk Man dia almost everyday. Tu pun dia tak muak jugak, weekend mesti ajak bothg of us for brekkie. Boring la the foods..asyik2 mee hoon.

Ni trial n error of making muffin. Nasib baik ada 2 anak dara in my family - my youngest sis n my little cousin. Kimi pun menyibuk nak tolong. Almaklumlah, muffin is his fav.

This is the first n last lasagne that I cooked this year. Rasanya belum ada mood nak masak ni lagi. Wait till next year kalau ada permintaan. Si bujang ni punya fav. food jugak..pasta.

Si bujang ni mandi pagi mesti pakai air panas..apa ingat ni London ke? Sydney ke? Cubalah mandi air sejuk..dia tak nak u. Nasib baik dah boleh isi air sendiri. His newly acquired skill.

Gambar-gambar ni mana yg boleh capai je. Coz' terlampau banyak na gambar dalam mcm2 folders kan. Will upload yg lain pulak next round. Ok..have a nice day and Happy New Year (Awal Muharram) di mana shj anda berada.

Sawang

Sawang

That is my blog

The slowness of the internet

The malas-ness of myself

The lack of free time

It has been nearly 6 months

We are now here

In our motherland

Back for good (you never know..)

Almost 5 years

Peoples grow

Peoples change

That's what I see

I'm still ordinary

Only with a PhD

Nothing changes

Inside me

Whatever it is

I'm happy

I have my hubby

and KIMI

besides me

Yea..

Kimi now is 3 years old

Ups & Downs

People said life is just like a wheel. Ada masa UPS ada masa down.
Mine is neither..using the wheel as analogy and the clock as the direction, my life is at 3 o'clock.
Maknanya tak Up or Down. I don't know what's the feeling. Rasa biasa2 je.
I have surrender of saying "have so much things to do". I think I need a break saying that.
I always have some objectives to do within a week/ a month.
BEing a researcher, is a researcher even without funding..

2010 and the blues..

Just to inform here that new year means nothing for me and I rarely follow the norm of starting new resolution(s) at the beginning of the year. As for me, it can be anytime and when the idea comes and the spirit is high, it can all started anytime. And what's next? Hard to tell. Continue working at old place? Of course. Arghh..it's gonna be tougher than doing PhD. Not because of the work though. There are mix feelings now. I can imagine how the traffic is going to be from KJ to Kepong and to avoid it, must wake up very early and will leave Kimi in someone else's hands besides his daddy. Can he survive? He will learn, will he? Kesiannya Kimi. Daddy also has to start fresh again. No more seaside and harbour trips, no more botanical gardens, no more reacheable neccessary places that can be visited just by walking (no need transport at all) like our butcher, clinic, supermarkets, mall, train station, park, etc. No more quality time. I don't know. It's just one of the January blues I suppose..he..he..Time to implement and integrate the new knowledges with the old ones at our own labs soon. In other words, time to give back to the country with new discoveries, insya Allah. Time to return to our families, the love ones. Time to have a new ambition, next leap. Time to change to a new blog perhaps.


By the way, lately daddy and myself have our very own small bussiness to do before we go home. It's furniture bussiness and soon will involve in a garage sale...duh..

Our beloved sofa lounge, wardrobes, favourite computer chairs and some other items were sold out like goreng pisang panas..eceh..


One of the sofas..have to let go (itu pun nak emotional :P)

Don't be surprise ..it happens to almost everybody who come and study here. Most of the rental housing properties here are not fully furnished. And you will have to buy all the things you needed to survive 3 years life here and unlike in UK, you don't have to be busied to sell furnitures that you have. However, this is another experience again and will continue to that when settle back in our home in Malaysia. Need to sell some of our furnitures there too. Anyone interested?

Warming up Kimi's style

All these photos were taken earlier this month when we visited Botanical Park (again...for 100th times..he..yes, I'm exageratting). The weather was almost 40 degrees and Kimi had so much fun playing on the field. But before that, let's learn Kimi's way of warming up before he kicked the ball.

1. Starting with head first..rotate your neck slowly for 360 degrees clockwise first, then anti-clockwise..


2. Stretch your legs out. Then, move your body to the left using your waist

3. Then, move to the right (you can eat a snack while doing this..kimi said)

3. Then, lower your bottom a bit and maintain in that position for 30 seconds.

4. Finally, strecth your leg like this ok.


Now, it's time to play football with daddy and mummy..yeah..

Kimi said he had to win so he took the ball away. The end.

What a nice weekend. Happy new year for all of you out there.

Four funerals and one wedding

December has been a significant month for me since first and foremost is that I was born in this month. Next, there are a lot of significant events happened in my close knit family during this month both sad and happier ones.

One of the saddest things that happened was just yesterday (27th Dec.). One of my beloved uncles; Arwah Uncle Ali had passed away due to acute leukemia. May Allah bless his soul dan semoga rohnya berada di kalangan orang beriman dan beramal soleh. He had been sick since last year and the last time we saw him was when we attended my little sister Cik Ayu's wedding sometimes in June this year. He looked skinnier than ever i.e tinggal tulang lah kata orang melayu but he still managed to be so talkative; especially talking about the past. He got a kidney problem at that time that he must performed dialysis like three times per week. He left a wife (my mom's eldest sister - infact eldest among her six siblings) and a daughter. He's such a significant figure in our family since he was the one who would recites the do'a at our dining table before the guys in our family when for sembahyang raya (pray during eid seasons) every year. Infact, when he was still healthy, he would lead a group of peoples to perform umrah in Mekah almost every year but not for the past two years due to his illness. I can say people would regards him as an alim since he was also a bilal (if I'm not mistaken) at the mosque near his home and also my atuk's home when I was a little kid. Now, without him, who would be the leader who will recite a fluent do'a. My husband?

We also had lost another uncle (my mom's brother) and my father in law last year. Last year also I had been notified that my ex-boss passed away in this very month due to some sort of liver cancer. He was my first boss who took me in the current workplace for a contractual officer post and the one the promoted me to persue my PhD degree. All these people that used to be the "regulars" in my life now had gone. I feel like I'm getting use to loose someone that is closer to me and it feels just not right (I had lost my father for 11 years now and that was one of the lowest part in my life until I got married). Even it's sound cliche if we say that "yang hidup pasti meninggal dunia" or everyone will certainly die one day but it is timely to rethink about life after death and have we prepare ourselves towards it (which most of the time we tend to forget)..and say alhamdullillah (thankful) to what we have got plus live life smartly to the fullest for a good cause. Maybe after this, you never know who'll meet the "malaikat maut" or death , maybe me? you? him? another person closest to you. Let's not taking life for granted.

Innallillah and al fatihah to these family members of mine whom had passed away.
Also, happy wedding anniversary to Aunt Nah and uncle Man on 25th Dec.

Alhamdullilah

..as for the moment..

I'd submitted my thesis yesterday!

Will be gone for a cruise today with colleagues - faculty sponsor.

C ya!

P/S: not to forget to daddy n kimi..definitely we will going for cruises this weekend ;)

Counting the days..

Counting the days..have two meanings here:
No. 1: To submit the thesis
No. 2: To be back for good
(btw..this is the first time I write from uni..tengah bosan bangat..)

Rantings on No. 1

I've done my part which I think up to the max already. Now waiting for him to give feedback. Then, I'll do my manual scanning (the most final one ..ohw please give me the strenght - if I'm ultraman..my chest button has started making its alarming sound dah: power dah nak habis); checking if there is any distinctive errors i.e. spelling, formatting etc. Then, printing the mock one - then send back to him (again??? duh..I don't like this..will tell later why). Then, printing like 6 sets of the thesis, binding and send to the main campus.

The point is my "superior" will be going to conference and will be off from this uni this friday. And I have the feeling that he's preparing for his presentation..and still wish that he can use his superior power to correct my thesis by today. He's very particular on grammar..(tak mau kutuk..la..tapi macam enroll dalam postgrad in literature..ah..sorry prof..dia dah publish satu buku in poetry tau - yang related to science pun ada). If..and if (I wish this is not true) ..tak sempat gua nak hantar by this week..the consequences are I got to send it after he comes back from the conference..lagi seminggu lebih la kena tunggu and will delay that thesis to be sent to examiners.

Finally..my main wish is that I hope to get back my thesis from the examiners before I return to my country in Feb. (which if this happens...I'll be veryyyyyyy grateful makhluk on this earth. Insya Allah!

Rantings on no. 2:
haiya..dah nak balik..cepatnya..
-kena pack barang
-kena pikir nak beli kereta apa ..beli kat malaysia sudah
-terpikir camana nak menempuh jam pi kerja nanti
-oh..umah kitorang..nak kena pasang grill..kimi dah pandai panjat
-terpikir camana nak control diet..mesti makan best2 kat m'sia..oh tidak..

Jalan-jalan ke Maroubra

Maroubra beach is one of many beaches in Sydney.
We'd been there last weekend for the first time.
The beach is nice and what we liked about it is the children playground located not far from the beach.
However, the weather was not with us. During midday, the rain was pouring quite heavy for this part of the world.
But nothing can beats nice M'sian foods and accompany.


Maroubra beach


Kimi nak ke mana tu?


Ohw..here you are with Athira

Daddy and Kimi strolling by the beach

It's raining..it's pouring and Kimi imagining himself as captain feathersword

La..la..la..

Daddy eyeing for sharks and vice versa.. :)

Sandy beach

Last pose before we went off

Botanical garden again!

So sorry ya! Not been able to update since a month ago.
Still indulging myself with writing-up the thesis which seems to be endless (when am I going to finish huh ..). I'm at the discussions part now and part of the draft is with my supervisor (he supposed to send it back to me this week but he got sick..really..that's my luck but wish him to get better in quickest time).

At the same time I got to "entertain" peoples with my talks. The last talk would be on next Friday which will be given to the "politically" correct audiences. This time the organiser would give 100 quids for the best presenter. If wins, the money must be spent for doing research..hmm. Generally what I found in my studies were all the edible compounds from kunyit, green tea, chlorophyllin, hempedu bumi - all actives for killing ovarian cancer ok..the results have yet to be published..tunggu..lepas habis tulis thesis..nanti akan ku hantar ke mana-mana journal cancer.

By the way, what is happening with two important men in my life?
Diorang ok..tak sabar-sabar nak balik m'sia..it's timely to go home..yes.
Enjoy the pics. taken during this month.

Kimi advancement:
-no more puting
-suka melaram..pakai topi & jam
-suka melalak kalau tak dapat apa yang dia nak
-paling suka makan..dia akan cakap yum-yum kalau nampak makanan best
-dia ada laptop sendiri brand ibm..every morning he wakes up and asks for "kuta"
-very active
tu je laah..enjoy the pics.

Btw, Tok Nah and Tok Man akan bertolak ke Mekah hari ini untuk menunaikan fardu Haji.
Semoga mereka mendapat haji yang mabrur dan sihat sejahtera semasa menunaikan Haji. Insya Allah, doa dari kami.


Siapa pimpin siapa?


Kimi the bergaya boy


Kimi chose this seat

Our bekal..btw, that is fried egg noodles prepared from scratch..not maggi!

Others include pizza and lempeng si kimi

Home-made pizza

Red Day

The whole world probably knew that Sydney got hit with red dusty storm last week. We had experienced just that. Just imagine waking up by a red glare from the windows..it felt so strange and of course one thing came in mind was that.."nak kiamat ke ni?" or "armageddon?". Luckily the sky gradually turn blue near midday onwards. Just imagine if we got stuck with this kind of environment. Surely it's sucks. A few of my FB friends (who didn't live here) told me that Sydney look beautiful in red. Yeah..try living here..outside the house..inhale the odour..how nice is it my friends..what a *&^(**& commment. But I did having fun in the house, didn't go to uni but doing the thesis write-up. I was not dare to brave that reddish particles of iron oxide.

As quoted from Nine news:
"Up to 75,000 tonnes of dust per hour was blown into the waters off the coast and particle pollution was the highest on record - over 15,000 micrograms per cubic metre at times, when a normal day would see less than 20 micrograms"

-padanlah merah sangat lah mak ngah!

Here were some pictures being captured by my hubby just outside our unit. It was red and dusty but not that stormy. But..yea..what an experience. Berangan lah as if kita kat Mars.

And you know what..what a coincidence that I already had used the front cover of Sydney Bridge in red background (on top of this page) way before the dusty phenomenon came. Never I thought that it will become a reality. I think I will change the background in rainbow colour after this.

Ok that's it for a short update..got to continue writing my thesis chapter..uarghhh!

Island trip

Masa yang ditunggu-tunggu untuk ke Great Barrier Reef. atau shorform GBR. GBR ni sangatlah luas dan boleh dilihat dari outerspace. Salah satu pagi sebelum ke konferens, sempatlah jugak pergi ke sana. Kami pilih Green Island untuk melihat GBR sebab banyak kemudahan untuk orang yang ada famili seperti kami.


Semasa bertolak dengan feri bigcat dari Cairns ke Green Island mengambil masa dalam setengah jam lebih.



Feri dari kompeni-kompeni yang berlainan. Kami pilih Bigcat sebab mereka dah establish paling lama.

Dalam feri..ada je budak nak sakat kimi..ni Jacob.

Kimi melihat alam sekitar..rasa aman sebelah Cairns ni..tak macam Sydney. Tapi makanan halal amatlah susah u.

Ni je gambar yang sempat diambil dari jeti kat Green Island..mana ikannya? Kalau kat Redang dah nampak dah..(kes tak sabar).

Cuba teka..mana kimi's mummy?

Permandangan jeti di Green Island

Ikan..

Salah satu spesis ikan ni pernah dijadikan lauk masak steam satu ketika dulu sampai naik muak..he..he..

dan ikan lagi..jangan tertipu gambar ni diambil semasa naik bot ala submarine yang ada glass bottom..ada orang sudah tak tahan naik itu bot (biarlah rahsia..).

Ceh..ceh..

On the way back..sakat menyakat lagi kimi dan kawan baru

Antara gambar corals yang sempat di ambil..staghorn, brain corals bersepah..ada gak sea anemone, sea cucumbers, turtles..ok la kan..dapat jugak tengok.

sea anemone .. sorry gambar tak clear..ni waktu tengahari..camera pun tak canggih.

dan yang best..kami dapat tengok whale. tapi tak leh nak predict bila dia muncul..so ini je yang paling hampir..whale's splashes. jakun semua orang. orang feri tu kata ni lah kali pertama naik feri nampak whale. ok cukup dulu takat ni..3 pos dah..pecah rekod.